Sometimes I wonder if i've grown emotionally stronger.
Its strange that i no longer feel as disappointed (which i thought i would be) when an outing that was planned earlier is suddenly cancelled for one reason or another. There seems to be this voice in my head that keeps reminding me not to hold my expectations too high, for it may fall through (& somehow it will).

Sometimes I wonder if I've just grown more defensive by putting less trust in people, so that i will become less vulnerable to actions or words that may hurt me. I consciously distant myself from some- cause I'm afraid, the closer I get, the deeper I fall and the greater the pain.

Thus.Low hopes,low expectations. working towards immunity (&perhaps insanity.)

Someone, save me.